Recent RM Frustrations

So it's 1AM, and I can't sleep, so here I go:

I'm not really sure about this whole trying to date thing. I mean, a girl lays down the flirt, and the next thing you know, she's dating one of your good friends. Or maybe she was dating him in the first place, but wanted to test the waters a little bit.
Then there's that factor that you're fresh off the mission, so you're not really sure who is legitimately interested in you or just flirting because you're an RM... totally annoying.
Sometimes I wish I had a solid girlfriend who knows me and my struggles, but it seems like the only girls who really know who I am aren't meant for a relationship.
There is this one girl who I have had an eye on for a few weeks now. She goes to my singles' ward, and she is about one of the prettiest things I have ever seen. I thought, when I saw her, that she would be way out of my league, and that I would never have a chance. But when I gave my homecoming talk, she watched me the whole time. Wait, what?
Then she hung around for a bit while I was going about my calling (asst branch mission leader) trying to get things in place... and as she was leaving (wish I would have had time to talk to her) she turned around and looked at me one last time before disappearing down the hall.
Am I imagining things? Or does she think I'm attractive?
"Who is she?" I asked my buddy Steve....

School apps are bugging me, too. I am going crazy trying to get all this LDSBC crap, along with my grad info, sent to CES by the state of FL. They make life hard on you for sure. I swear they don't want anyone to know how crappy their school system is, so that's why they do it.
I just hope it's all done in time for me to have a good place to live and a great roomate, you know?

Then, to add the stress of it all, your family is struggling with unemployment, and your dedicated, hard-working Mother is doing her darnedest to get the family fed and fulfill her calling, and at the same time all hell is trying to stop her, from family, from inside the Church, from other means. I swear, these days, the Church is full of nephites, and I don't mean the good kind. I mean the prideful, do-as-I-please-and-try-to-make-everyone's-life-miserable-who-tries-to-correct-me-and-I-don't-care-who-gets-hurt-in-the-process kind of people, and it's all your poor mother can think and talk about.

Thank goodness I was able to get up to the temple last night with my best friend. As we went through the session, and received the instruction, a whole lot came clear on how my obedience is paramount in my dedicating myself to the Lord, how I have to have goal to do all that He commands...
And in the Celestial room, it came very clear that the Lord is completely mindful of my plight, and difficulties. I read in Moroni 7, in the Book of Mormon, "....has God ceased to be a God of miracles? ...nay... for He is the same yesterday, today, and forever."

So, I relaxed. The drive home, it was all very peaceful. Everything will be okay, I'm sure, but the getting there may be stressful, in the meantime.

How anyone can get by without the gift of the Holy Ghost and the Restored Gospel in their lives, it beats me. Tonight I had the chance to go out with the homeward missionaries, and share a lesson with a part-member family who happen to be some really great friends of mine. Talk about a great experience.

Okay, it's 1:49. Bedtime.